Hanging out

I woke up this morning just after 9am and went into the city to meet Darren. He was running late so I ended up going to Uni to post Alistair’s parcel and then went to BNZ and ASB to pay off my credit cards. Darren only ended up being about half an hour late so that worked out quite nicely. We went to pay off my phone bill at the post office and walked to the Gen-I building to see Rhys.

The computers were down at the office today so Rhys had an early lunch. We met up with him and he gave me the discs and we ended up going back into the city for coffee. He said that he was officially, 100% single and we talked about that for a bit. It was only after about twenty minutes that Rhys realised that it was Darren who Alex had asked for information on me.

We were all sitting at Gloria Jeans drinking our coffee and just talking. It was quite interesting. I brought out my pictures of Alistair because Rhys wanted to know more and more about him. Rhys told Darren the story about how we met and about how our families actually know each other. We talked a lot about work, what is happening in all our futures and just had some good conversation.

After Rhys went back to work Darren and I walked around the city. We ended up at a Martial Arts shop near the Town Hall looking at shoes which they had on sale. They are really great shoes, really flexible, thin, and good for clubbing and dancing.

It was such a hot day, it was about 26°C and we walked to the Oracle Tower to see if that was open. We ended up going back onto Queen Street and saw Darren’s sister at work. We just walked out of the building when he saw Helen, someone who he used to work with. We were sitting there talking for a little while and it was quite interesting, I found out that she went to Mt Roskill so knew a lot of the people that I knew. She asked Darren if he was ‘seeing anybody’ and he said no. Then she looked at me and said, “Are you...” and I finished off her sentence by telling her that I was ‘engaged, you know, to be married’. That was quite funny and when she left twenty minutes later she wished me all the best for the wedding which was really nice.

We ended up at Wendy’s where we sat for about an hour, just talking about the time when we first met, how our perceptions over guys have changed over the last four years. We started sending each other photos and things like that via our mobiles and he spent about half an hour going through my phone and reading messages that he had sent me months ago. He said that it was always funny reading things that he had written and couldn’t believe some of the things that he had said.

We went walking along High Street and into some clothing stores. It was quite cool to go into stores that I hadn’t been in for ages but I wasn’t really too interested in shopping. We spent a bit of time down at the CD store looking at DVDs and then went down to Starbucks for a drink. We ended up going down and having a look at the Downtown Westfield and spent most of the time in the Electronic Boutiques store looking at games.

Long day, but a good day. It's great hanging out with friends!

More dramas

I was woken up this morning by a message from Darren. He had been to Flesh the night before and had a run-in with Alex. Alex was annoyed because Darren told me about how Alex wanted to know some embarrassing things about my life, dirt on me, and all that kind of stuff. I told Rhys, who confronted him about it. Alex told Darren that he shouldn’t have told me about it and was really angry. Darren of course felt really sorry for Alex.

I'm a nurse, any jobs going?

Gus text me saying that he had ran out of papers, so took the Onehunga off-ramp and wanted to know if I was at home. I gave him the directions and he pulled up outside a couple of minutes later. We sat in the car and talked about a lot of stuff. Just random things, what was happening at Flesh, where his parents were in the world, what was happening with our jobs and stuff like that. We took a drive around the block because he wanted to show me what happens when he goes over bumps, apparently there is a noise from a loose latch at the back of the car which I heard, but didn’t seem to be that annoying.

We talked about ‘Shortland Street’ of all things which is something we talk a lot about. I remember sitting outside 277 talking about it with him, about how everything was all linked. We talked about whether Ferndale was a suburb or a city, as apparently there is a ‘Ferndale City Council’ on the programme. We made family trees of the characters and talked about why they all lived together, or have slept together. Why do strangers just turn up and say “hey, I’m a nurse. I’m looking for somewhere to stay” and there is always a spare room somewhere and a job going?

Jealousy

I was talking to Rhys tonight and asked him if Alex had anything against me, an impression that I got from Darren last night over the phone. He said that Alex didn’t have anything against me and asked why I thought that. I told him about what Darren had said and he told me that he would ask Alex about it and that they were having some problems.

Ooh, someone is jealous over me.

Vendetta?

I rang Darren this evening. Apparently, Alex asked him for information about me; he obviously doesn’t like me and has some sort of vendetta against me. I told him that I would ask Rhys about it and see if he knew anything.

Another sighting

I was woken up by a text message from Gus around 2am. He said that he had spotted Charlie McDermott (Ben, ‘the best mate’) at Flesh. We always seem to tell each other when we see sightings of people that we like and talk about. We did it with Carl (who he saw in Subway once), Kulai (who works at Telecom and knows Rhys), and Jeremy Birchall (Billy, ‘the gay guy’).

Closure. Happy Birthday Todd

Today was Todd’s birthday, he turned 19. I wanted to wish him well and congratulate him but I didn’t. He needed some time away from me and I agreed that it is best for both of us if he got that time. We spent an amazing 19 months together, I heard from him most days, even if it was just to tell me he had a long and tiring day and would get back to me at another stage. He would send me messages telling me how he was thinking of me. I miss them but I still know that he is.

I loved Todd. I thought that we were going to be in the lives of one another forever. But our relationship wasn’t equal; I think that he had too much power. It’s not that he went and exercised all this power, but it was just how it naturally fell. Anything he asked of me, I would do. I would always succumb to him because I needed him much more than he needed me.

But I needed closure on the situation between us. I couldn’t just cut my ties with him. This was my best friend. I didn’t know how to get over the hurt and pain of it all. It was sudden, it was unexpected. I don’t ever want to go back to how things were between us. I was flying back from Melbourne, coming back to life in a new year. I imagined that Todd had died. In a way, he has. That way I can just think of the wonderful times we had, I can imagine that I will never see him ever again, I don’t have to wait for that phone call or that email from him on Valentine’s Day or at birthdays. I think that is how I managed to get closure on the situation.